I like this photo. Does that make me a pervert?

Explicit image below! Do not look at it if you are offended by topless women!

No, I am not in it (just in case you were wondering!)

I swiped it off the net someplace.I did a google image search and this was one of the results.

I won't tell you what I was searching for (you can come to your own conclusions!)

I like this photo, it's kinda hot. Thinking the chick on the left may have fake tits, or she is just very perky!

I have no idea what the words covering the photo are or where it came from. Google had it.

Can you please stop leaving spam comments in Greek?

I don't fucking read Greek, it's meaningless gibberish to me!

Oh man, I haven't been on here since forever!

Still at my parents, but I don't want to talk about that anymore.
I saw a relate councellor (don't know how to spell that word properly!) last week and going again tomorrow. It's to discuss everything in the hope that she can offer some useful advice and help me to resolve a few things.

Jon and I don't get to see each other hardly ever, but despite that we are in a pretty good place (relationship wise) right now. Under the circumstances. He is sharing a flat with the woman that he went out with after I left him. She likes him and still wants to get back together. That must have been her motivation for offering to flat share with him. He's not interested. He sleeps on her couch and she has the only bedroom. He says she pesters him to split with me and get back with her. But on the up side, living there is much better than the dump his brother calls home. I trust him, of course. If I didn't I'd loose my mind!
I'd like for us to give things another go properly, but it's not so simple. He lives in Ipswich and I in Norwich, which are miles apart for one thing. Our sons are settled in school here, good schools and their friends are here. I'm hesitant to look at pulling them away from that. But Jon's older son from his previous relationship is in his town, as is his job and all his relatives. It's an awkward situation.
Neither of us have a car. I can drive but he can't.
Not only that but my parents can't stand him (due to the previous turmoil in our relationship) and don't know we are on such good terms.
Me and him have forgiven and forgotten the past, but I don't think my parents are capable of that.

It's coming up to christmas and I'm struggling to buy presents for everyone without running up minor debts.
But I'll get there. I always get by somehow. God, I need a job! But there isn't many out there. I've been applying though, and getting turned down left, right and center. Now my kids are a little older and both in school I feel uselss, just sitting at home doing nothing.

I have sent off the first three chapters of a story of mine to a literary agent to see if they are interested. It's the first time I've ever pursued publishing any of my work. I'm hopeful, but know they could easily be not interested. I'll let you know what response I get.

It's my birthday today!

March fifteenth and I'm 29 years old. Yay!
It's not fair, my birthday should not be this stressful.
I like being with Three for my phone contract. My latest one expired last week and I don't want to get an upgrade, I just want to start over with a new contract. In january I wrote a letter to Three asking them to terminate my contract when it came to the end of the term. I got a phone call from an agent confirming reciept of my letter. But she did not tell me weather she was going to terminate my contract, she tried to sell me an upgrade. I said I wasn't ready to look at that yet and didn't want to. She didn't care. She insisted that I look at the deals available so that she could ring me back the next day and discuss. I agreed to that just to get rid of her and then refused to answer when she rang me for the next few days.
A week ago on sunday I went online and ordered a new phone/contract through the company's website. Only I never got any email confirmations or letter about any of it and the phone was not delivered on the day the website said it would be. I went into the Three store to try and sort this out and things just got worse.
I found out that I have to give thirty days notice BY PHONE to end my contract. I wish she'd have f'ing told me that before!
A saleman in the store phoned up the company on his phone and we tried to fix things.
The phone I ordered online was pending or something and I got that sorted, kind of.
When I spoke to customer services to try and arrange the contract termination she said she could give me a good upgrade deal and insisted I let her tell me the options. She cleverly worded things so that I'd agree on a new deal, which I stupidly did without fully realising what I was doing. At the end when I remembered about the other phone, the one I wanted and I tried to ask her about it she got confused and rambled on about something else. Then said is there anything else I can help you with?
Yes, you can roll up and die, cause I f'ing hate your stupid ass! But I didn't say that.
So now I have two deals. The phone I want that I ordered online. This is apparently on hold and won't be dispatched. And the upgrade she sold me that I don't really want. Which is being delivered tomorrow.
I phoned up to try and cancel the phone that's coming tomorrow and was told I can't. I have to refuse the delivery and then ring back to try and sort out closing my account for the contract which expired last week, but has now been renewed and upgraded.
If I wasn't looking at paying money I wouldn't ring that bitch up again for a million bucks!
I am left SO angry, frustrated, furious and upset. I'd like to reach down the phone and throttle that stupid saleswoman. She doesn't give a damn about what I want at all! She doesn't care that I don't want whatever good deal she can sell me.
Back in january she said, but I can give you a very good deal that you won't get in store or online.
I though yes, but I'm not ready to think about a new contract yet and don't want to look.
Maybe I don't want a good deal. I'm actually happy with an okay deal that I can get from online.
She can go fuck herself. I really wanted to shout at her and ruin her day, like she's ruined mine.
I don't know how I could be so calm and polite when inside I was just burning with fury.
So now things are even more messed up than they were yesterday. It leads me to ask myself is it really worth all the hastle?
I like the security of a contract. That's why I go for them instead of pay as you go. When my contract comes to the end of it's term I like to get a new one, with a new phone, instead of upgrading.
It just should not be this stressful. It's not fair that I have to deal with this on my fucking birthday!
I chose to go into town today cause I stupidly thought the absent new phone I asked for could be easily sorted out. How could I think a simple thing like chasing down a hung up online order could be far from complicated?
If I have to speak to that woman again I don't know if I can bite my tongue. I almost hope that I do get to speak to her and after she sorts out my issue, I can recall how angry she made me feel and just give her a piece of my mind. I haven't felt this furious in as long as I can remember. I want to ruin her day and make her feel bad cause it would feel good. Revenge is sweet!
I've just been calling her any derrogitory name you can think of this morning and then I tried  not to think about it anymore so I wouldn't be stressed all afternoon.

So it's my birthday and that is the thing that matters/bothers me the most today. Isn't that sad?

Bras and Stuff

I have been having a bra nightmare. The two that I brought six to twelve months ago (I can't remember how long I've had them now) don't fir properly. Since I was ill last October (spent several weeks in bed) I have not worn a bra. Didn't wear one while I was laid up in bed and when I recovered just found them too uncomfortable. The end result is unpleasant droppyness. I bit the bullet and got fitted on saturday (in John Lewis). I don't recommend them. The bra I was fitted with felt tight, but I didn't say anything cause it's ment to be tight, but after a few hours of wear it left red marks under my breasts across the front of my chest. The shop won't refund either cause the bra now looks worn. Spent time crying about it. I hate bras so much. I really wish I didn't have to wear one at all! Got fitted in M&S today and they are much better. Was fitted with a completely different size to the fitting in John Lewis. Felt more comfortable, but they don't have the size I need in the colour I'd prefer. It's such a new bra I can't even order the one I want yet. So again I'm braless! Probably not a pleasant though, sorry.
That's all that's bugging me right now really.

AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WILL YOU LOT STOP SPAMMING ME? I DON'T WANT TO ADVERTISE ANY OF YOUR SHIT!
Thank you x