I'm in a bad place right now and need to share. I feel like what's the point of life? I mean why am I even here? I get it, life is a lesson. But what is the point of my life beyond that basic thing?
I don't know how to find the answer to that. I'm a creative person and I like to create. It might be fun to even make a business from that somehow. That's the tricky bit. I can't find employment and am bored sitting at home. I don't know how or where to focus my attention. Sure I have kids and I nurture them, but I sometimes wonder if I'm doing so great at that. I just want to curl up and cry and never stop. That sounds like depression but I don't have time for that rubbish. I need another purpose in life. Being a single parent is not fulfilling enough. I could drink alcohol and temporarily feel better. The solution to life is out there. I just need to find it. It's not in a pill or the bottom of a bottle of rum. It comes from within. The black pit of despair in my heart has sucked it up that's all.
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