So, I have finished writing this story that I have been working on for months and months now. I am confident that it is good and have sent the first three chapters off to a publishing agent. I am now waiting for their reply and hoping it is the one I want. I have been rejected enough times on another story that I know the chances are slim that the answer will be Yes, send the whole thing!
But I remain hopeful.
I strive for perfection in everything I do, which I guess makes me a bit of a freak. I feel confident that this story is as perfect as it's ever going to be, which is really saying something. It's no five minute read either and runs to near on 400 pages A4. So if the agent DOES ask for the whole thing it will cost me a small fortune in ink and paper to run off a copy. But it's a small price to pay for fullfilling an ambition.
It's called Run after the Snow Patrol song and I in fact feature the lyrics. It's supposed to be a kind of (what's the word?) testament to how good the song is. But if I do get published we may need permission from the music company to include the lyrics. I don't really know about that. Cause it's copyrighted material. You couldn't post a video on youtube of the song without permission, so surely the same applies to written word? I guess I'll find out.
The story starts out with this intense scene from a movie cause the main character is an actor. The idea behind this was to hook the reader in and peak some interest from the outset. But seen as dream sequences are frowned upon because it lulls the reader into a false sense that what is happening is real right up to the point the character wakes up, I hope this movie scene is not seen as the same thing. In one of the earlier versions of this story this scene was real cause the character was a criminal, but then things improved.
You know what the hardest part of writing is? Doing the synopsis. I swear it is. I've spent like years writing this bitch and then I have to sum it up well in a single page and I can't do it! But I have to, so I have. I just don't know if it's good. I hope the difference between a yes or no from the agent is not hinged too much on a good synopsis, cause it might not be a good one.
It's no use me whining about this work of art I have written really when you have no clue about it, but it makes me feel better. Lol.
You know what? I still like this guy from work. It's crazy. I've been a volunteer in this office for over a year now and I still feel the same about him as the day I first met him. It's killing me. I am single now and have been for a while. So is he. Mike is gorgeous and he makes it worth going to work. I have become a fixture in that place because I am so good and effecient at the scanning that I do they could not manage without me now. It's a good thing. It's nice to be helpful.
I would like something to happen between Mike and I but I don't hold out much hope. Doesn't stop me feeling the way I do about him though and dreaming. I hope at the very least that he is attracted to me, even if he's not interested in anything happening. Is it possible to feel both of those things?
Maybe I'm just crazy. I've learned to live with things the way they are though. I can handle it.
It's just nice to talk about it. I can't exactly talk to any of the girls at work about this because I don't want it to get around the office. I don't want to be gossiped about. Unless they have already picked up on something and are whispering things behind my back, but I doubt it. Nothing's happening, it's just me liking him.
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